So tonight sitting here I was like. I really should blog. Its been awhile. AWHILE is an understatement. I mean how could I let last Monday go by and not update my blog!!!!???
Ha!
Well most all of you know by now that last Monday so a week ago today I got my results back and they were not only great they were fanfreckintastic. My life has been so busy I honestly got my news Monday and moved on to the next thing.
I dislike busy. I mean we allow the time to slip away from us without even realizing it. BUMMER. I am learning fast that when we get those small moments of time with special people in our life that we need to give all that time to them. Up until last week I can't tell you the last time I honestly spent time outside with my kids. Even more with my littlest man. I have allowed myself to get so consumed in "things" that I forget how amazing just watching them grow and play warms my heart like nothing else.
To look into my kids eyes mean the world to me. Eyes say a lot to me and always have. I find it necessary to look into someones eyes when they talk. You should try it, it says so much more than the words that are coming out of their mouths. When I look into either one of my boys baby blues that are very similar to you, however very different to me I see hope, I see what can be what will be and what they dream of. When I look into my daughters very simple but deep in thought brown eyes I see who I am and how I affect her and how I mean so much to someone so small and simple. I give her a very hard time for being very emotional but I know she gets the river of tears from me and her emotional outburst, yep right here. Its so hard to look at your kids and get upset when they act, talk and walk like you. You can only see what you allow yourself to see and man I have spent some time being blind.
So back to my original point. Last Monday morning at about 7:45am I found out that the "lump"/"spot" that I had allowed myself to get all worked up about, entirely over emotional about was in fact something but nothing to be concerned about. That the sono and mamo came back clear and that what I thought was my boob in fact was in my armpit and that it was/is most likely a torn tendon. So I had to go to light lifting, which hasn't been bad as I did a little change and actually have primarily only been walking in the mornings. Which is so refreshing to be around amazing people. So the lifting thing hasn't even been a problem. Nice thing is that actually just last night I was like umm where did it go I can slightly still feel it but its hardly there anymore. ODD! Remember I wasn't even supposed to find out for 7-10 days and got to find out way sooner. :) GOD IS GOOD! So no cutting, no needles I am free for another two years!!! :) Due to family history I now have to go back and have mamo every two years, good thing totally not complaining.
We celebrated Trey's birthday since last blog(I think I may have blogged about this) we had a great time and he made out like a bandit.
Well I think I will stop here for tonight I am tired so break it down I guess:
1. I get to see my sister Josh and Addi this week!! STOKED
2. I don't know that I am emotional prepared
3. I am having a lot of "memories" of things from the past and have a dislike for some of them
4. None of these are making sense to anyone but me and that's OKAY
5. Take time, put your phone down and look into your babies eyes it may scare you what you see but you will only learn to love them even more than you already do
6. Everyone needs someone to love them
7. Greater things are yet to come
8. You are never guaranteed tomorrow so be sure you do your BEST today
9. BELIEVE IN YOU
10. Never allow your surroundings to define WHO you are!
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