God made me strong for a reason part 1

I have always known I am strong. Come on I'm a girl and girls are stronger than boys. I just have never known how strong exactly. I am about to find out. And that for me is okay. I will take the curve ball and learn how to throw it right back. With that being said I had a great day yesterday.

Yesterday:

I got to see CT and TR and BR(lil B) lol!!! It is good to see old close friends. It was good just to chat catch up and realize that I'm not alone and see what it is like to keep it real. LOL!!

The next thing that happen was FANFRECKINTASTIC!!!!!!! LOL so I have been shopping with Lane Bryant for years, in fact more than I would like to recall. If you are my size you understand the store is for us "plus"size ladies. It is an awesome store and I love it. However I am 100% sure that my shopping adventures to there are OVER!!! Ha... so I tried on like 5 pairs of pants, found out what size I needed and then asked her to order them in tall. I am totally used to no one ever having talls its just one of them things you get used to be 5'10 lol!!! Well she couldn't order them. I was like oh my goodness total defeat!!! EPIC FAIL... shit what am I going to do??? My current pants no longer stayed up. I only have 2 dresses that fit and a skirt on the way out the door also. She did an awesome job with her customer service skills in fact I encouraged her to please go online and apply with VZW!! LOL!!! I felt bad for her because when I don't get what I set out to get I trend to get rude. I know I know, I get so mad at people for doing it to me. I am trying to control. I know it wasn't her fault. In fact I was like well thanks for letting me try them on and see what size I can buy!! I had full intentions of leaving and going home and ordering them online. Then "LIGHT BULB" moment. Just maybe... just maybe!!! JCP... hmm back in the day when I worked for them they carried talls and well. I could possibly find the size I needed. The only problem I had planned on having was that I need a "woman" size. Well to my amazement I fit in misses!!! AHAHAHAH!! Awesome.

Let me break this down: Lane Bryant one pair of pants 69.50(crazy I Know) JCP 1 pair of professional nice looking slacks 27.00!! So amazing!!! I walked out of JCP on cloud 9 and saving so much money!!!!

So long story short!! Keep the pounds a falling and save me some dollar!! :)

Then we move to today. I attempted(key word) to run. I made it one mile before the pain in my left shin and calf were unbearable. I believe is no pain no gain. But this was a little much. So back to my old work out plan until my leg can heal. I am sure its because I have been running every day this week.

This next part will be vary vary vague until a follow up blog. So you know when you know something might not be right and well, you just try to put in on the back burner thinking oh no big deal, all is well. It will go away. Well I did this once before and today while lifting I had this scary thought, I did this the 1st time I was pregnant. I felt something was wrong, I then saw the signs, but refused to really SEE what was happening. Needless to say as most of you know, it was my first baby and we never got to meet him or her. Lets just say in a round about way I have a feeling I am back here staring in the mirror. No I am not pregnant. No I am not sick. Just the best analogy I can give right now.

I totally did a follow up to a blog earlier this week and the statement GOD made me strong for a reason was in it. I saw my friend use it as her status and it made me smile. When writing this, I didn't really know how powerful this was going to be in my life. I know I am strong. I know I was made this way for a reason. I know that I am placed (most days) where I am supposed to be, because if not GOD would change it. I am praying to not have to really test how STRONG I really am. But I know if this is another path I will be able to conquer. I watched my brother 1. Throw left handed, and throw curve balls for years. Surely I will see it coming(maybe) and be able to keep my eye on the ball and swing. I am not asking to hit a home run or a grand slam a single would be awesome for me. JUS SAYIN!!!

Any ways!!! Life marches on!!!!!!


Recap

1. JFJ Concert in the PARK: Less than 2 days away
2. I have a "new" tag line for JFJ: WE ARE HER VOICE!! We must speak out and LOUD!!!
3. God made me strong and might be testing this
4. AND THAT is OKAY with me
5. I love who I am and will do my best to always SMILE
6. Shoot now I have to go to 10
7. I heard a lady say "I hope I have as good of friends as Jenny does"
8. What doesn't kill you only makes you STRONGER
9. I believe my youngest child test this theory out every SINGLE day
10. Family First Forever (ps there are very few "friends" in my life who make the family list and to you, you know who you are)

~peace out girl scouts~